I have what!?

hello-

so I didn't post yesterday because I was busy with the family and working out of course...I weighed myself and I cannot believe I was the same weight yesterday as I was a few days earlier!! Not okay. So I have continued eating the minimum for now and drinking a lot of water and working out. Yesterday I was rushed at the gym, but I got to do the elliptical, bike, treadmill, and rowing machine for a few minutes each and then i squeezed in some sit-ups.

Today, I had to babysit all day, so I did not get to the gym, but I did overcome a huge thing for me--eating while bored. Whenever I babysit I am notorious for checking all the cabinets and Fridge to see what good stuff they had and then ravenously eating most of it. Today was the first time ever that (yes I did check to see what junk they had) but I did not eat any of it! I had water and tea instead. And of course some coffee=)

I feel a little upset that I did not get any gym time today and the fact that I had some ice cream, but I am confident I'll begin feeling better tomorrow. My plan of action is: Wake up and have some grapefruit, water, and coffee..gym..lunch=soup or celery with salsa...errands...lightlightlight dinner...obviously thats not my full day, but its sorta an outline to keep me on track. Also, remember this is my "detox" diet, not a healthy lifestyle kind of diet and I only plan to eat this little in order to lose the first few pounds to get me going. I also tend to eat a TON at night, like I could go all day without eating a thing then all of a sudden it gets dark and I feel the need to stuff my face. That is absolutely not okay because you want to eat the least amount of calories at night. That will be the next feat to overcome...

Anyway...some motivation for you guys to slim down, or not gain weight is that I just found out that I have developed a medical condition: raynaud's syndrome that makes my fingers turn blue and gives me a headache almost constantly...due to a fast weight gain because of stress and tension...My fingers have been turning blue and my feet get tingly and I randomly feel like I am going to throw up =( My family noticed and they were like you need to get that checked out ASAP!!!!!! and when I found out today what I had I was like what the hell!? a real medical condition because I gained weight!? howww did I get to this point!?

Well, enough droning on about the weight, I have a date next week with a guy I have not seen since the summer when I was much smaller in a bathing suit so I need to look good! I'll let you know how that goes, but I'm excited cuz since school started and was so stressful, I havn't been on a date in a while!!

I hope everyone is enjoying this break and I hope everyone enjoys the new Year tomorrow!!

much love =)

Day 1

Hola...

so I am new to blogging so I should probably introduce myself...I am an 18 year old college student living in NY. I love partying, shopping, boys, and working out. I'm currently home on vacation from my first semester away from home and I am so bored, so I decided to create a blog!!

I have had weight issues in the past and I am gonna use this blog for inspiration and hopefully to inspire some of my readers. As some of you may know, it is SO HARD to be healthy let alone lose weight in college and even before college my weight has been CRAZAYY all over the place, but since this summer I have gained almost 20 pounds!!! I will try to write as much as possible here and I will write about my obstacles, the different diets I experiment with and things like diet and workout tips. I'm going to be downright honest with you guys, letting you know what things work and what things don't work. But, this won't be just about working out and losing weight, I'll be sure to fill you in in all my crazy times at school, going out, boys, and juicy gossip in NY =)

Soo, I just started getting back in shape. I have worked out the past 5 days. I usually do the elliptical for 30-45 minutes and lots of sit ups. Today, i did abs, lifted a little, elliptical for 15 minutes and swam for about 20 minutes...I used to run a lot and i did cross country and track in high school, but since gaining so much weight, it kills my knees to run =/ My first goal is to start running again and enter a road race in Central Park...

Today I am trying to do an altered detox diet...I had 1/2 a grapefruit for breakfast, a cup of orange juice, 1/4 a graham cracker, and a coffee. I had 1/2 a graham cracker for lunch with a few slices of orange and another coffee...I am pretty hungry right now, but i think I will feel better in a bit. I am making sure to drink plentyyy of water and take my vitamins everyday! I can get really grumpy when I am hungry because I get tired, hence the coffee, but I cannot live without coffee either way even though it is pretty bad for dieting. Oh well, we will deal with that later...

P.s. did i mention that the first thing my mom said to me when i got home from school before Christmas was "hmm, what have you been doing for working out? your thighs are looking too big and bulky, have you been lifting to make them like that?" UMMM HELLOO!!! NO!! Do you think I have time to go to the gym while im trying to ace these Finals?? I think not. thanks mom. at least I can always count on her to be brutally honest and motivate me to lose this weight.

P.P.S I am not sure if I'm ready to share with the entire internet community my current weight, but let me tell you it is disgusting. But so you know a ball park, my ultimate goal is to lose 50 pounds...lets see how this goes.. Thanks for reading =)

love,

distressed, yet motivated college girl <3>