let the weight loss begin!

so now that I have found a real motivator-- my Reynouds disease (and getting back to school) -- I have been able to drop 5 lbs =) I re-started weight watchers and I love it. It is definitely a long term weight loss program, but you can use it to loose weight as quickly or as slowly as you'd like. Buttt if you are competitive like me, it is easier to shed pounds with weightwatchers online because it is easy to get really competitive with your self. It is especially rewarding when the smiley face comes on each time you loose 5 lbs!! hehe...

Anyway, I went to the doctor yesterday about my little medical speed bump and i got blood work done. So I basically find out if I have something more serious such as diabetes tomorrow or Thursday. I am praying it is only something that I can fix by dropping a few pounds because diabetes is an awful thing to live with and many people in my family have it =(

...also I have been reading many blogs when people are depressed. I just want to say to all of you, especially in hard times to keep your head up. Find stressors that bother you and that aggravate your sadness and eliminate each, one by one, by listing little ways to help each one. Let yourself know that you are not alone and that you can be happy because your life is worth it. I say this because I have been through quite a rocky road of depression. I am not "depressed" right now, but of course I get down more than usual. I feel like sinking back into my lonely depression each time i look in the mirror, each time the guy I like doesn't call me back, and each time I feel lost or like I will never be good enough. Each time I feel like this I realize my real goals, what and who I am living for, and how I will get myself out of it knowing that I will feel great at the end of the tunnel. Weight loss and struggle with weight issues are not the only causes of depression, but let me tell you, it is an extreme factor and everyone out there trying to loose weight--you need to create a mantra and follow it. You need to wake up every morning and say that. You need to tell yourself you were created in a beautiful image and you are a beautiful person with an original personality. I read a book called the "Secret" and it talks all about this. It says that you must pretend you already have what you want and believe that you actually have it and you will surely get it. I used this myself a while back and it actually worked. I would tell myself I had the perfect body, and the confidence I emitted drove me to lose that weight and be the person I wanted to be. Weight loss is a certain percent nutrition, another percentage fitness, and yet another spiritual well being and mind. If you have a bad body image, you will stay the way you are inside and out. If you work on confidence, loving and appreciating yourself, and bettering yourself, you WILL get what you want.

Good luck =)

p.s. weight loss is EXTREMELY ADDICTING..so once you shed even just 2 or 3 pounds, you will be off to a good start if you stick with your plan! I hope I have more lost pounds to tell you about next time!

I have what!?

hello-

so I didn't post yesterday because I was busy with the family and working out of course...I weighed myself and I cannot believe I was the same weight yesterday as I was a few days earlier!! Not okay. So I have continued eating the minimum for now and drinking a lot of water and working out. Yesterday I was rushed at the gym, but I got to do the elliptical, bike, treadmill, and rowing machine for a few minutes each and then i squeezed in some sit-ups.

Today, I had to babysit all day, so I did not get to the gym, but I did overcome a huge thing for me--eating while bored. Whenever I babysit I am notorious for checking all the cabinets and Fridge to see what good stuff they had and then ravenously eating most of it. Today was the first time ever that (yes I did check to see what junk they had) but I did not eat any of it! I had water and tea instead. And of course some coffee=)

I feel a little upset that I did not get any gym time today and the fact that I had some ice cream, but I am confident I'll begin feeling better tomorrow. My plan of action is: Wake up and have some grapefruit, water, and coffee..gym..lunch=soup or celery with salsa...errands...lightlightlight dinner...obviously thats not my full day, but its sorta an outline to keep me on track. Also, remember this is my "detox" diet, not a healthy lifestyle kind of diet and I only plan to eat this little in order to lose the first few pounds to get me going. I also tend to eat a TON at night, like I could go all day without eating a thing then all of a sudden it gets dark and I feel the need to stuff my face. That is absolutely not okay because you want to eat the least amount of calories at night. That will be the next feat to overcome...

Anyway...some motivation for you guys to slim down, or not gain weight is that I just found out that I have developed a medical condition: raynaud's syndrome that makes my fingers turn blue and gives me a headache almost constantly...due to a fast weight gain because of stress and tension...My fingers have been turning blue and my feet get tingly and I randomly feel like I am going to throw up =( My family noticed and they were like you need to get that checked out ASAP!!!!!! and when I found out today what I had I was like what the hell!? a real medical condition because I gained weight!? howww did I get to this point!?

Well, enough droning on about the weight, I have a date next week with a guy I have not seen since the summer when I was much smaller in a bathing suit so I need to look good! I'll let you know how that goes, but I'm excited cuz since school started and was so stressful, I havn't been on a date in a while!!

I hope everyone is enjoying this break and I hope everyone enjoys the new Year tomorrow!!

much love =)

Day 1

Hola...

so I am new to blogging so I should probably introduce myself...I am an 18 year old college student living in NY. I love partying, shopping, boys, and working out. I'm currently home on vacation from my first semester away from home and I am so bored, so I decided to create a blog!!

I have had weight issues in the past and I am gonna use this blog for inspiration and hopefully to inspire some of my readers. As some of you may know, it is SO HARD to be healthy let alone lose weight in college and even before college my weight has been CRAZAYY all over the place, but since this summer I have gained almost 20 pounds!!! I will try to write as much as possible here and I will write about my obstacles, the different diets I experiment with and things like diet and workout tips. I'm going to be downright honest with you guys, letting you know what things work and what things don't work. But, this won't be just about working out and losing weight, I'll be sure to fill you in in all my crazy times at school, going out, boys, and juicy gossip in NY =)

Soo, I just started getting back in shape. I have worked out the past 5 days. I usually do the elliptical for 30-45 minutes and lots of sit ups. Today, i did abs, lifted a little, elliptical for 15 minutes and swam for about 20 minutes...I used to run a lot and i did cross country and track in high school, but since gaining so much weight, it kills my knees to run =/ My first goal is to start running again and enter a road race in Central Park...

Today I am trying to do an altered detox diet...I had 1/2 a grapefruit for breakfast, a cup of orange juice, 1/4 a graham cracker, and a coffee. I had 1/2 a graham cracker for lunch with a few slices of orange and another coffee...I am pretty hungry right now, but i think I will feel better in a bit. I am making sure to drink plentyyy of water and take my vitamins everyday! I can get really grumpy when I am hungry because I get tired, hence the coffee, but I cannot live without coffee either way even though it is pretty bad for dieting. Oh well, we will deal with that later...

P.s. did i mention that the first thing my mom said to me when i got home from school before Christmas was "hmm, what have you been doing for working out? your thighs are looking too big and bulky, have you been lifting to make them like that?" UMMM HELLOO!!! NO!! Do you think I have time to go to the gym while im trying to ace these Finals?? I think not. thanks mom. at least I can always count on her to be brutally honest and motivate me to lose this weight.

P.P.S I am not sure if I'm ready to share with the entire internet community my current weight, but let me tell you it is disgusting. But so you know a ball park, my ultimate goal is to lose 50 pounds...lets see how this goes.. Thanks for reading =)

love,

distressed, yet motivated college girl <3>